I've been meditating for 4 years and have many frustrations with it, moments of doubt. Moments when I think "wow my baseline mental state has improved so much" and moments when I think "I was deluding myself, I'm basically no better than I was 4 years ago". And I KNOW that a proper mindfulness practice would be to also see theese thoughts are arising and passing in the field of awareness. I think I've gotten much better at it, but it hasn't really reduced my suffering by itself. Ok, I can see the suffering as arising and passing away, but how does that make life better? More often than not, it doesn't.
I'm a very rational, "left-brained" person, and sometimes I wish I could be a Christian able to dedicate all of his suffering to Christ and hence transform everything into union with God. Your article helps give a rational backing to this line of thought (and also reassured me regarding my "progress" in meditation).
Awesome article. I've read it like 3 times already, and saved it for later.
thank you curious to know what resonated with you
I've been meditating for 4 years and have many frustrations with it, moments of doubt. Moments when I think "wow my baseline mental state has improved so much" and moments when I think "I was deluding myself, I'm basically no better than I was 4 years ago". And I KNOW that a proper mindfulness practice would be to also see theese thoughts are arising and passing in the field of awareness. I think I've gotten much better at it, but it hasn't really reduced my suffering by itself. Ok, I can see the suffering as arising and passing away, but how does that make life better? More often than not, it doesn't.
I'm a very rational, "left-brained" person, and sometimes I wish I could be a Christian able to dedicate all of his suffering to Christ and hence transform everything into union with God. Your article helps give a rational backing to this line of thought (and also reassured me regarding my "progress" in meditation).